Intentions and Results

Isn't it crazy how events often get a twisted life of their own? You do something. Say something. With some end in view. Others interact in that process. You are going along a path. Then suddenly, without warning, you find things hurtling along a tangent. And things have acquired a twisted life of their own. Ideas and opinions are formed which may have little to do with reality. At least little to do with YOUR reality.

It's not that I feel frustated at an inablility to have a sane relationship with people at work. It's when I try to be honest with a core group at work that I see this weirdness unfold. Then I think - should I need to be a part of the madness? The madness of deceit and dishonesty? I'm told by others that I'm honest. While that works well in gaining trust with people, it goes fundamentally against "handling" people. Peers and opinionated superiors mostly.

Isn't it deeply pissing off when someone gives you that "Yeah, I know" look when you know that you could fool this person if I choose to be dishonest?